Ireland x Reader [The way i am...]

I can describe myself, simply with  four words:

Moody, Lack of self confidence, self destructive and drunk. I can describe myself with four words, but no matter how hard I try, four words will never be enough to describe you. I have tried enough times, none of my attempts

Whenever I'm with you, I feel that everything stops, I don't feel flawed but you become worse than my alcoholic beverages, giving me awful headaches; my moods somehow are more instable ever... and I'm scared to mess this up.

"What are you?" I wonder, you made me feel like a total different man, not precisely a better one, yet I still feel different. You are human as myself, you're super flawed as I am, you have a heart, a brain, legs, arms, a chest, stomach, face; you're a complete human being. Yet, whenever I look at you, I don't feel like I'm looking right through another human being; not that I'm saying you're a heavenly goddness, yet I can't grasp on to what you really are.

"Why you're here with me?" I have asked you, none of your answers have satisfied my curiosity. I have made you cry, smile, mad even feel jealous!  Hell, I don't know what you see in me! I'm not special!

That's what I think,  but you see something different, that I honestly i'm not!. "You're funny","you're handsome", you say, your words has shocked me "You're special to me Kenneth" and "You make me feel like special Kenneth".

Your words shock me. I'm no good,  from the bottom of my heart,  I'm legitimate scared to hurt you, I don't want to hurt you,  but I'm afraid I will eventually.  

I'm so unsure about all these feelings,  but I'm happy about one thing.

And it's that you love me the way I am.